| dang man, does anyone even do this thing anymore? lol. idk, im sittin here so bored, and i was thinkin, i kind of miss xanga. lol. that happens when u have no one to talk to or to listen to ur problems, right? idk man, i've just been thinkin, life is wack now. when i was a kid, i couldnt wait to grow up, get my license, get a car, have less rules and more privliges. and now that i have all that, i kind of dont want it anymore, lol. now that i think about it, have rules and regulations, and no license, was everything fun about my life back in the day. like sneaking out, tping, riding bikes pretty much anywhere i went, cuz thats the only from of transpertation i had. also, more then anything, i miss the old friends i used to hang out. i really dont hang out with anyone anymore, it sucks dick. idk ,man, tp-ing, sneaking out, chillen at joshes house till all hours of the night with a million ppl. that shit used to be so fun. like back then it seemed so boring, but now thinking back on it, that was so much fun compared to what i do now. tp? fuck no, ride my back? SHITTTT, sneak out? it wuoldnt be sneaking out anymore. idk its like growing up sucks all the fun out of everything. i couldnt wait to grow up and have less rules and more leway, and now its like i just want to give all that back. i'd give anything to be a freshmen and sophmore again. those were the days man. maybe even back in middle school. life was so simple. now having fun is so complicated. back in the day u could juss chill, and no one cared. now u have to acutally be doing something for ppl to want to hang out anymore. idk, i dont really expect anyone i know to read this, thats pretty much why im writing all this. man, i dont even talk to half the ppl i used to anymore. ppl that i thought were my best friends, the closest to me. now its like their total strangers. idk, i just feel so paranoid, like im running out of time to enjoy life. like life after highs chool is just gunna suck, ya know? idk. i always went from one group of freinds to the other, i can name so many different ppl i chilled with just between 8th and 10th grade, and its like over the past year i lost all my friends pretty much. i mean no one calls me to hang out, i feel like a total loser. honestly, if i never called ppl, i'd sit in my house all day every day doing nothing, pathetic. and to top shit off, this entire spring break, i worked everyday, so i didnt even have the opprotunity to even attempt to do anything. but yea, idk. i just kinda felt like venting. i've been kinda depressed lately, and thats sort of y. idk, i just have this really empty feeling, like no one really cares about me, u know? like ppl could give a fuck less about me. and thats a really horrible feeling, it makes u feel like shit inside. but yea, im done with this shit |
